By M. Sakran
Click. Waiting … waiting … wait? Nothing. Days pass.
Click. Waiting … waiting … wait? Something’s there! Is that one of them? Yes it is!
Okay wait. Be calm. Take a second. Breathe. Okay – I’m going to open it. Alright wait.
As a writer, you know this moment – the moment when you open your email and there is a response from a publisher to something you submitted. It’s there. It’s bold. It has that look of an unopened email that just wants to be opened.
But you’re scared aren’t you? You want to open it. You’ve waited for it. You’ve check for it everyday. But what if? What if it’s bad news? Another decline. Another thank you but no. You’ve gotten them before but you’re still nervous. To send it out again. To edit. To start over. Things would be so much better if it was accepted.
But you still can’t open it. It’s like getting a test paper back in school and not looking at the grade. Not knowing gives you hope. Maybe you did pass?
You’re worried. You wonder. You realize that worrying doesn’t matter, that the result is already there – but you’re still worried.
So there it is. Bold. Unopened. The answer. The result.
Finally you click, and you brace yourself like getting ready to be punched in the face. You almost squint your eyes as you try to read it without reading it.
M. Sakran has written a variety of items for websites and magazines. He is the author of First Try. His blog can be found at https://msakran.wordpress.com/