How Do You Surrender Your Life to a Book?

By Dixie R. Diamanti

I was standing in the middle of the floor wringing my hands wondering what to do next after the release of my book.  I had been working on this project so long I was not ready to let go of it.  I didn’t know how attached I would become to the process; and how reluctant I would be to the letting go of it.

It is my story.  MY story! Why would anyone else want to read it?

I have to be honest with you.  There were many times during the writing of my memoir, “Climbing Out of the Box”, that I would think, “Who on earth cares about my story, Lord?  Why would my life be interesting to anyone else?”  But then deep down in my spirit I would hear God’s reassurances of love and direction to keep moving.

So, I moved forward.  I had no idea what I was doing.  It was blind faith.  We use the tools and gifting God has given us….sometimes without seeing the completed plan.  He grows us up to reach outside of ourselves to see others walk in the same freedoms.

And that is my goal, really; to make a difference in the lives of others.

I love to write but I’m not really patient to wait for the plan, the dream, to unfold.  Especially if I have a vision of what I want to put down on paper.  I can see it.  I can feel it.  I am excited about it.  I want to do it now and see it published next week.

But then I wait and write.

And wait and write some more.

And then I don’t want to let go if it, again, and wonder why anyone would want t o read my stuff.

Looking at my motives I realized it is not just about whether my book will be a best seller or not, though that would be wonderful.  It is about being me and being true to who I was created to be and to my calling.  God has a plan.  Then I had to face the fact that even if I knew it wouldn’t be a best seller, I would write it anyway, if only to reach that one person who thought there was no hope left.

There is a divine journey assigned to just me.   There is one assigned to you too.   It is a journey about reaching out, touching lives, healing hearts and being vulnerable enough with my story that it will truly make a difference in the lives of others. 

I want to flow in His plan and not get ahead of myself.  At least in my heart I do.  My head is a different matter.  It wants everything yesterday.  It’s because I have this dream, and it is not going away.  I have more stories to tell.  They are not going away either.  But when I am writing I have need of patience and I always learn in the process.

Maybe it simply means validation.  When my book made it into print, it said to me, “Yes, you are doing this right.”  I am doing what I’m meant to be doing.

And I am good at it.

So, here I am with a self published book, waiting for it to get in the hands of the right people through social media, and being okay with it.

It’s not as though I have a choice.  I can’t control it, this walk of faith.  And I can’t control the outcome or the wait.  But God knows and His timing is always best for our journeys.

It is all about surrendering to the process.

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Dixie is a wife, mom, and nana to a large and wonderful family.  She has discovered that God had actually been preparing her, through many years of adversity, for stepping into a new and exciting adventure with Him. Her book is Climbing Out Of The Box: My Journey Out of Sexual and Spiritual Abuse Into Freedom andHealing. As a Certified Life Coach, author, speaker, and teacher, Dixie has reached out to women and men on the Central Coast of California for many years, leading them to freedom and self-esteem.  She believes that every child of God has a distinct calling, and through her work, she assists and coaches women and men in finding their unique purpose in life.  Dixie’s passion is to see people discover how precious and valuable they are to God, and loves to encourage and challenge them in uncovering and making use of God’s hidden treasures within themselves. Here are all the links to my sites: Web. www.reflectionsofgracehome.com  blog. http://reflectionsofgracehome.wordpress.com/
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