By Carolina Carter
Late in the sweltering
August of 1998, I found myself in my kitchen, cutting butter into flour for a
piecrust. When each pass of the oscillating fan, bits of ingredients flew
into my ponytail. On the television perched on top of my fridge, the
evening news murmured on. My thoughts wandered, focused on my task but
also drifting this way and that. Recently and suddenly, I had lost my young
uncle to lymphoma. I missed him. I wondered what it meant that he
could disappear so quickly.
Pieces of the news filtered
in and out of my consciousness like the flying bits of flour and butter.
When a news hour essayist began to read his piece, my imagination entangled
with his ideas. His essay covered people who have departed, and he made
the point that “we don’t like to think of them as dead. We like to think
of them in some paradise, leading a new life. Somewhere, Judge
Crater sits in a nightclub sipping champagne from a floozy’s slipper.
Somewhere, Amelia Earhart tends her garden and watches jet planes overhead.”
I stopped. At the
desk in the kitchen, on the notepad next to the telephone, and I wrote down
what he said. That slip of paper, nearly two decades later, still has the
stain of butter and some permanently affixed flour. I couldn’t understand
then that I had begun Under the Legend. While it would not
arrive until 2016, it would be about his imagined paradise on earth.
You have scrawled notes
like this in your house I know it. Even if you are already an established
writer, you have scraps of ideas that don’t appear to hold the weight of an
entire novel. But you also have, I am certain, a powerful
imagination. That tendril of an idea can become an intractable weed,
impossible to eradicate from the garden of your thoughts by no other means than
writing that novel. An idea has chosen you. Don’t let it down.
Every writer has a
recipe, and here is mine: read your idea, and then ask yourself “but what
if...” Repeat. At some point early on, a character will begin
speaking to you. Listen to her. The voice will not be your own, and
that is frightening. Keep listening. You may not be able to do this
immediately, as I was not. Many years might pass before you can translate
the story you’ve been given. Consider this proofing time, and not
procrastination.
The novel I am writing
now started as a dream. When I woke from it at 3:00am, I wrote down the
idea, and the title, Watching the Caitlin Channel. At first
light, however, both my handwriting and the premise appeared too small.
But as the morning unfolded, I managed to remind myself that it was not up to
me to choose an idea; an idea had now chosen me. The missing ingredient
to this novel was not a new premise, but an old and beloved standby:
faith.
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Carolina Carter is the
only child of an independent bookstore owner. She spent much of her childhood
in the backseat of her mother's yellow Volkswagen bug, traveling the United
States on book-buying adventures. Now a professional writer in New York City,
Carolina balances her urban life with frequent escapes to the beach towns on
route 30A along Florida's panhandle. She still enjoys a long road trip, a dusty
bookshop, and the adventure of the perfect read.
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